“No where to run, no where to hide”
“There is no one so low as he who can not see the light of day…” One day a man walked into my office. His countenance was dark and hopeless. He was at the end of his rope. He had no where to run and no where to hide from the great depression that engulfed his whole being. All he needed was a glimmer of hope. This is a short version of his story…his healing in indeed miraculous!
“Growing up my parents always seemed to see me as guilty…if anything went worng their reaction was, ‘Did you do it?’ My father was distant and my mom just seemed not to care. Their business life took precedence. In boarding school I was lonely and felt abandoned by my parents which reinforced my feelings of rejection. One day an old boy took notice of me and began to pay attention to me. He was always doing nice things for me until on day he molested me. I had such mixed feelings…guilt and shame. On the other hand the physical touch felt good and I liked being wanted.
“After a couple of years of being molested the boy moved and I was left alone. I decided I didn’t want to experience that anymore…the shame was too great. I began to have physical experience with girls my ow age, the more the better. It made me feel like a man.
“After a few years I had a relationship with a young lady who became pregnant with my son. We decided to get married. It didn’t last. She became abusive and I became more confused and depressed. I also found myself going to places where I could find quick pleasure with men. It ‘seemed’ to help but after I was even more depressed and the shame even greater. After a time the relationship with my wife became non-existent. We both loved our son but we could not get along together. Her rage against me was too much for me to handle. We eventually got a divorce.
“After a while I met another lady who was kind and loving but I just didn’t know how to react to that kindness. In my heart I wanted to love her but my depression was just too great to allow our relationship to grow. It was at that time I cried out for help. God met me…up until that time I didn’t know God at all. He was only someone people talked about in church. At one time I thought He really didn’t exist…if He did, then why did He allow all the bad things to happen to me?
“That all changed when I met Jesus Christ. I made an appointment to talk to the head of Restoring Wholeness Ministries. The man I met introduced me to the only One Who could help me. I was at the end of my rope. But after a few sessions with Wynn I began to see that God was real and H did love me! I realised it wasn’t going to be an overnight fix but I really didn’t care. My life had to change and I was willing to do anything for my healing!”