I leave you with this gem of spiritual truth regarding anxiety concerning the future.
“The future is in God’s hands, not yours. God will rule it according to your need.
But if you seek to forecast it in your own wisdom, you will gain nothing but
anxiety and anticipation of inevitable trouble. Try only to make use of each day;
each day brings its own good and evil, and sometimes what seems evil becomes
good if we leave it to God, and do not forestall him with our impatience.
“Be sure that God will grant you whatever time you need to reach him. Perhaps
He may not give you as much as you would like for your own plans, or to please
yourself under the pretext of seeking spiritual perfection, but you will find that
neither time or opportunity for renunciation of self and self-pleasing will be
lacking. All other time is lost, however well spent it may seem. Be assured that
you will find all such circumstances adapted to your real needs. In proportion as
God upsets your own inclinations he will uphold your weakness. Do not be afraid;
leave everything to him.
“You will always find freedom in God so long as you do not give way to the false
idea that you have lost your freedom.”
Francois Fenelon, The Royal Way of the Cross (cited from The Complete Fenelon,
translated & edited Edmonson & Helms [Paraclete Press:2008], p.18)